Think about what you think about
I think I had mentioned I was reading a book entitled “Battlefield of the Mind” by Joyce Meyer. I don’t always agree with what she says, however, I KNOW I struggle with worry. . .BADLY. I am very guiltly of not EVER thinking about what I think about. I allow myself to get so worked up at everything. I get worked up if things don’t seem the same day to day. Well, other mothers, and dads, know that with kids this RARELY happens! I still allow myself to think TOO much sometimes about things. Not thinking ENOUGH about something can get us into trouble, however, so can thinking TOO MUCH! I fall on the thinking too much catergory. I let my mind come up with all sorts of junk that it makes my worry and anxiety more. I start thinking the worst possible scenario’s, a lot. That is unfair to me, Katie, Andrew, and frankly, everyone around me. It is not a good witness because it is saying I cannot even trust the God and Savior I love and believe in. That is not good. I was really convicted yesterday at church. The passage was about not showing favortism and teaching us God shows no favorites, so as Christians we need to love EVERYONE. I realized that while we all struggle with judging at times, the way I am not living this passage is I tend to think God loves everyone else MORE than me. That is why I think bad thoughts, dwell on negative, because in my mind I think God likes other more than me, so why would He desire to give me good things? It is awful and I really need to change my thinking. I need to start THINKING about what I think about. A paragraph of a chapter in this book sums it up for me, and pretty much IS me.
” For most of my life, I didn’t think about what I was thinking about. I simply thought whatever fell into my head. I had no revelation that Satan could inject thoughts into my mind. Much of what was in my head was either lies Satan was telling me or just plain nonsense – things that really were NOT spending my time thinking about. The devil was controlling my life because he was controlling my thoughts.”
WOW ok, that hit me. I know I wont be perfect overnight. I am sure I will still annoy and irritate my darling husband to NO end some days with my obsessive worries, but I have GOT to stop letting negative thoughts consume me. When I do, I am missing out on all the positive things in life. Honestly, this is true no matter WHAT you believe, not matter WHAT faith you are. If we always think negative thoughts, our lives will be negative. You are what you think to a large degree. I don’t want to be negative. I want to be positive. I am so SICK of worrying about dumb things. I say I cannot control it, but with Christ I can. I need to. I must. As my good friend tells me, “in the words of Yoda, there is NO TRY, only DO!’ Well, I NEED to do this. No more trying, Emily. In the words of Nike: JUST DO IT!
Meditate on Philippians 4:8.