Ok, so I am actually going to write a more serious blog today. I have been sick the past few days, fever and all, so my brain was not functioning to well to be serious. It really isn’t even now, but I am going to go for it anyway, haha. As many of you know by reading my husbands blog, we were at a church planters conference earlier this week. One of the speakers that talked kinda got me with something. I guess it takes a few days to sink in, in fact, it will probably take my whole life, but I am going to work on it, or try to anyway. He talked about how ANYTHING that is hindering us from hearing God or putting God first in our life is an idol. And an idol is something that we want to control in our life. Although many common idols people struggle with may be materialistic mine is not. My idol is worry. Worry is a sin, I know that, worry is also wanting control over something I have no control over. Worrying does no one any good, and yup, I know that too, so why do I still do it? After he challenged us to figure out what our idol was, he then challenged us to find the idol under the idol (it was called near idol and far idol on his picture). The near idol is what it appears to be on the surface, where the far idol is the one truly causing the problem in the first place. Well, the far idol on worry is. . .FEAR. Fear is worries best friend. Think about it. Why do we worry? When do we worry? Ususally we worry over something or about something that we are afraid will happen. I then really started thinking about the things I usually worry about and most of the time it has something to do with people I love. I worry about things happening that will effect those I love, hurt them, or cause me to lose them. I know many of you think that is a women thing to worry, but it isn’t an excuse. The Bible specifically tells us NOT TO WORRY. There are many verses about it in fact. . .especially HERE and HERE. You know I know these verses too. Whenever anyone tells me, “Emily, you know what the Bible says about worry” I am like ya I do and I quote these. So why is it SO hard to let go and not worry? Worry has become a pattern in my life that I SERIOUSLY need to unravel. I dont just need to cut a few strings of it off here and there, I need to totally destroy it. Think about it. If you have something woven together, you can pull a couple of strings out and it will still remain intact. It may be frayed and weaker, but it is still intact. So, what do you worry about? What is your idol that is standing between you and a wonderful fullfilling relationship with Christ? I shared mine, although I will have to be reminded not to worry several more times in my life I am sure. But with the encouragement and love from my husband and my friends, I know I can start to cut apart the worry quilt I have sewn for myself for years! So, I just wanted to share my struggle with you. We all have struggles but we all have a Savior who is capable of taking those struggles and idols we have, no matter WHAT they are or how big, and throwing them away, as far as the east is from the west!
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