Em-pulse

Ok well, again it has been a few days since I have posted.  I have been a little under the weather.  I have a cold or something.  Sore throat, stuffy nose and all the fun stuff that goes with it!  SO!  I have been a little out of it.  I did come to work today only because my boss was frantically telling me he needed me for something.  So, I came in today and worked on that the first half of the day.  Hopefully it turned out ok!  The more I am in Auburn the more I get excited about moving and starting the church!  Some days, I wish, I mean REALLY wish we could just pick up and move now.  But then I realize how many people I would miss   I would for sure miss Journey and my JourneyKidz ministry team and kiddos!  They rock!  We are actually having a little Christmas party next week at our childrens directors house.  I am excited about that, it should be fun!  I would also miss many of my girl friends here!  Allison, Candice, Jenny, Jennifer, Cheryl and several others.  So, while I am looking forward to the next stage in our life, I know God has us in Auburn right now for a reason.  I am learning so much about God and how He provides.  I am learning to trust Him to work out the details and to try not to spaz out about EVERYTHING.  Probably the hardest thing to NOT worry about is, unfortunately, money.  I hate money!  Seriously.  Why can’t we go back to the trading this for that attitude?  Seemed to work ok right?  Oh well.  Yes it IS scary sometimes to think about it!  I know moving has expenses, when we begin having children, THAT will cost money, moving up north will cost MORE money than here, all while making LESS than we do now.  Some days I am also terrified of being a “ministers wife”.  Being under the microscope, in the fish bowl, whatever cute term you want to call it, I am scared of it, for me AND our future kids.  I am also sometimes scared at how our schedules will work.  Will we be able to spend good time together as a family?  I get nervous about how demanding it will be, etc.  But you know what?  I need to remember that all I am called to do is follow Christ and the Father’s will.  If I (we) do that, everything else will fall into place, even if it doesn’t seem plausible at the time.  SO!  Even though there are certain aspects of this church plant thing that scare me, the excitement in following Christ, and the fact that God called us to this (that still is exciting and amazes me!) heavily out weighs the scary parts   What in your life are you clinging to or worrying about that is causing you to not follow Christ, or be afraid to, OR just simply not allowing you to SEE God’s will?  Let it go.  Sure, we will still get scared from time to time, but God is bigger than our fears, and the road He will lead us down will be well worth it!  God Bless!